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It's a rainy Beltane.  It smells glorious outside.  I have a baby napping in my lap, the front door is open to let the fresh air in, and I feel a little pulled out of time right now.

I've noticed it growing over the last few weeks.  Sometimes I catch myself thinking that I'm back living at home where I grew up.  I think that part of it is that now that it's finally raining here, I am getting all those smells that remind me of growing up on the island.  Part of it also is that this is the first time that I have been purposely jobless since I was 18.  It's a new and old reality for me.

Not that I don't love being a SAHM, I really do.  There are so many things that I haven't had time to do in years.  I can cook proper meals without the feeling of being rushed.  I am planning to go back to sewing my own clothes (after a trip to the fabric store to pick up a few essentials), I am back relearning all my old Craft techniques, I have an outside garden/yard for the first time since I left home ... DW says he finally feels like a grown up being in our own house after so many apartments.  I feel a little like I'm taking care of the house waiting for my mom to come home.

There are still a few Beltane-y things that I want to get done today - get my seed paper started, get my apple trees into separate pots before they strangle each other, get my little mini maypole made, get the house cleansing ingredients together for this afternoon, etc.  First though, I'm going to take this quiet moment as an opportunity to meditate.  Then maybe a tarot spread.  I have a feeling there is something that I need to see.

Hi Everyone,

I know I have been quiet lately (busy, having some emotional issues, busy again, sleepy, then busy again), but I am still here, and hoping to post something of substance soon.

I have had some good news over the last week:  my kitty's diabetes is apparently going into remission.  This means that he is down from 4 units of insulin twice a day to two units once a day.  In a week or so (probably closer to two), we are going to go back for a check up to see if he can be taken off of it entirely.

This is really exciting for me, not only because it means that my kitty will be healthy again, but also because it will mean no more $400/month vet bills.  I will actually be able to have a savings account again!!  I'll be able to buy supplies for my course and pay for the next course in the fall!

Maybe even buy myself some new clothes.  Yay!

Not much else is going on.  The weather has turned somewhat fall-ish, but it is supposed to be sunny again by the end of the week (which should give my sun-burned lips just enough time to heal ... who ever heard of having a sunburn on their lips, anyway!)

I have been spending a lot of time at the beach the past month.  I love the ocean so much!  We have managed to only eat out at good restaurants, thus cutting down how often we eat out by quite a bit.  We even went to see the new Indiana Jones movie (awesome movie - go see it ... like right now!).

I don't know what it is about stories set in the early-mid twentieth century, but they make me feel strangely nostalgic.  Which is bizarre because I wasn't born until 1980.  Ah well, that is a pondering for another day.

Time to get back to work.  Just wanted to let you all know that I am still alive.

--Phae

On my way home from work, I was bomped in the nose by a butterfly.  At first I thought it was a moth, but when I looked to see it flit into the bushes, I saw a distinct flash of orange.  I didn't know butterflies stayed out at night.  It definitely caught my attention.

--Phae

Someone out there likes me (or I have an apartment brownie who is trying to make a seriously good impression - though, he might think about doing a few dishes if he wants a happy landlord ~_^). Last night I was watching tv (we have been using my portable 13" since our last tv died ... we don't watch a lot of tv, so there hasn't been a big motivation to get a new one), and I notced that they had changed the tv listings channel to a different format. Now, it doesn't come in very well to begin with, and the new format made it impossible for me to read at all.

I mentioned to wintersdark that we really did need to get a new tv now. I can't read anything on it anymore, and I am not keen on having to wear glasses to watch tv. And I meant it. They aren't that expensive and I have a raise coming up, so we could easily afford one. So, guess what WD finds in the downstairs hall this morning when he came home from work? Yup, a 27" tv. It works great (I had to adjust the color, but it's otherwise fine). There is no remote, but our last tv was the same brand so I might actually have one kicking around here somewhere.

So there you go. Manifestation-o-rama! I may start taking requests. LOL

--Phae

The weirdest thing happened to me last night. My toybox came back to me.

First, a little background ... I first got this toybox when I was about three years old or so. I am a bit of a packrat, so I had it right through until we were getting ready to move out of our Surrey apartment (about four years ago now). We were moving, so the less stuff I had to deal with the better.

I was 22, had no kids, wasn't looking to have any, so I figured that I would leave it for someone else to enjoy.

Last night as I was coming in from work (being mildly pissy that I had to park so freaking far away that I had to come in the back door of the building), I saw a toybox that looked just like mine. That was actually my first thought - "Hey, I used to have a toybox just like that when I was little". Then I looked closer.

It had a few new stickers, and was a bit more faded than I remember, but it was the same toybox. I recognized the Cinderella stickers that I had put on it when I was about ten and then tried to scrape off when I was about twelve. I figured that that was just to creepy to let pass, so I went upstairs, and made wintersdark come back down and help me carry it up.

It now sits in my living room waiting for a good sticker stripping and a new coat of paint. I think I am going to turn it into my altar. I can still hardly believe it. It has followed me from two towns away. That has to mean something ~_^

--Phae