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First, I just want to say that I love this icon so much that the next time somebody pisses me off in public (ok, maybe not at work), I am going to yell, "Yeah? Well, you're a smelly Pirate Hooker!" at them from across the room and watch their faces turn bright red as they try to figure out what I have been smoking and not sharing! LOL

Now, on to the crankiness ... WTF is wrong with people, anyway? From 'You're not a Wiccan unless you fit into my very narrow non-Wiccan definition of a Wiccan' crap to all the 'You're an idiot because you think that there might be consequences for you being an 'Out and Proud' Pagan in American society. I mean GAWD! There are LAWZ, duh!'

Uh, huh. I am really beginning to believe that this sort of 'I am right and you are stupid' attitude comes from spending too much time online and not enough out in the sunshine. Lack of vitamin D, maybe.

WHY DO YOU HAVE TO CARE WHAT THEY DO WITH THEIR OWN SELVES?????(...2, 3, 4 ... yup, that should be enough). Srsly (and yes, I say it like that), walk you own path. Worry about your own self. You try to live everyone else's life and walk everyone else's path and all you are going to get is blisters.

Grrr. No more communities or message boards for me for a while. *sheesh* What's worse, is I know just what it is like to think that way.

So, let's see. In my years as a Witch, I have been a Ravenwolfite, a Poor Persecuted Pagan, a Know-It-All-Pissy-Fit, a Hippie Earth Child, a Gawth Dark Witch, an Eclectic Wiccan (yup, I'm going there. Try to stop me.), a Kitchen Witch with an insatiable lust for kitchen gadgetry, and a somewhat FamTrad Matriarch. I be havin' some serious blisters!

But, it all comes back around. I am me. I am an Aquarius. I have learned from where I have been, and I have lived to tell the tale!

On the plus side, I saw a bumble bee today.

--Phae

Amazon shot me a message with some books their computer thought I would like, and there was one that looked interesting, but I am not sure if it is worth the money. Has anyone heard of The Spiral of Memory and Belonging: A Celtic Path of Soul and Kinship by Frank Henderson Maceowen?

The reviews on Amazon aren't really helpful, and I tend to trust the opinions of people I know more than random strangers with an Amazon account. Any thoughts?

--Phae

ps - might cross post this to a couple comms too ... haven't decided yet.

Literally, even. I bought a new bra the other day ( TMI alert ... unless you want to hear about my bewbies )

I got a haircut last week. It was meant to be a trim with some added long layers, but it ended up with my losing about 6 inches of my hair, and the hairdresser getting no tip. :P I was (and still am) mildly pissy about her taking off twice as much as I asked her to, but everyone around me assures me that I am very cute, and it isn't so bad because in a few weeks it will be the length I want it to be anyway.

I am trying to decide on what I am going to do for my winter hair change. I would like to try the two-toned thing, with dark brown or black for the under-colour, and refreshing the red on top (I am very attached to my cute blond highlights, and don't really want to lose them).

I have bought a couple of short story magazines. The college just down the street from my house publishes one of their own and surprisingly, it pays the best of the Canadian ones I have found so far (up to $500). I have decided that I want to try and get back into the short story thing.

I still have some of my novel to work on (and NaNoWriMo is coming up), but I think I want to get some of the other stories out of my head without guilt. If I can start to make some money writing, that would be great, and it would be something to help bring in some income when I go back to school next year (aside from my job, of course).

Today, I am going to finish reading my book, and I am going to make some homemade soups (more and more I slip into the Kitchen Witch thing ... I kind of like it ... scratch that, I love it!), and I am going to make some mocha because I am craving chocolate in a bad way! ;)

I also have to get my Halloween decorations out, ( Cut for weird ramblings so you can skip over it )

Well, that wasn't all that much lighter, was it? Oh well. Blame it on the weather ;) Grey clouds make me think weird things. I love them.

Happy Weekend, folks.

--Phae

At last a real post (aren't you excited?)!

When I last went to the bookstore, I picked up my copy of this years Witches Almanac. I was looking at other stuff in the Pagan/New Age section and came across the Witches All ... saw the engraving and just had to have it. ^_^

I love this book. I have only been buying the Almanac for the last three years or so, so this was a great way to see some of the bits that were included in previous editions. One of the sections that I found particularly thought provoking was in the article titled 'Mirror, Mirror'.

It talks about using mirrors for divination and astral projection, but it also mentions something I haven't seen other books on Witchcraft take on ... the idea of discovering your essence. The idea is to stand before a three panneled mirror and reguard yourself without emotion. See the differences between what you do see and what you ought to see (disreguarding the current fashions). Then, go through your wardrobe and get rid of all of the clothing that does not highlight your essence ... everything that doesn't show you how you feel you should look.

It also suggests changing hair styles, but I think that we might take this exercise a step further and add weight loss/gain to it as well. I know for a fact that there is a difference between who I see myself as and the person I see in the mirror. I think that this can be a great way to use the mirror as a tool for body image work rather than as the enemy.

I don't currently have a lot of mirrors in my house (and I don't have any three-panneled ones), but I think I can make a start with the bathroom mirror.

--Phae

I just finished reading 'Into the Green' by Charles de Lint ... for anyone who hasn't read it yet, I highly recommend it. In perusing through some messages on PW (the coherant ones, anyway, I tend to skip over the others), I got to thinking about the 'Wiccan' deities.

When I was studying with the coven last year, there was a lecture on the Wiccan god (I had come just after the one about the Goddess, I guess). About how he is has the qualities of a lot of gods ... of Dionysus, of the Green Man, of Cernunnos, the Oak King ... in the book (Into the Green), they called him the Summerlord. One who is in constant rivalry with his brother, the Winterlord ... or as we know him on this side of fantasy, the Holly King.

The stories about the Oak and Holly Kings have always held an attraction for me. Sitting here, I can look out onto my balcony and see my two trees ... oak and holly ... sitting in their pots right next to eachother. The oak is a full season older than the holly, but the little evergreen is rapidly catching up.

I think that the time has come to spend some time in contemplation of the two year kings. Also, I believe that my little kings out on the balcony could use a drink ~_^

--Phae