![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
I have been churning something in my head lately, and I think it needs to come out now. I think I might be falling back into agnosticism. It isn't that I don't believe in gods. It is more that I am not entirely certain of their nature. I am finding more and more that I don't really see them as gods. Not in the traditional sense of the word, anyway.
I am sort of starting to look at them as powerful spirits. Similar perhaps to Catholic saints. Those who help us to do our work in the world. I don't know if there is a creator deity, and further, if there is, I don't know that it is a conscious being. I have always had a easier time seeing big g God as more of an energy field (like 'the force', I guess) from which the gods we know sprung like flowers from the earth.
I am going to start looking into the concepts of ghosts, spirits, angels and demons. And more about the fair folk. There are connections there, I think. Connections of magic that transcend religions and mythologies and politics.
I am going to step back from the Wheel this year. I am going back to the secular holidays that I celebrated as a kid. I am not going to try and juggle Yule and Christmas. I will enjoy the season, alone. The days I will let pass with a moment of reflection and thought.
I started with Halloween. To me it was a quiet night of reflection on those who have passed before and plans for the future. The end of the year.
I hope that this year will bring me some illumination. I am done trying to fill specific days with ritual that doesn't seem to do much for me. All days have the potential for illustrating the beauty of the season.
I am moving off the path again. Who knows where I will end up. Wish me luck.
--Phae
I am sort of starting to look at them as powerful spirits. Similar perhaps to Catholic saints. Those who help us to do our work in the world. I don't know if there is a creator deity, and further, if there is, I don't know that it is a conscious being. I have always had a easier time seeing big g God as more of an energy field (like 'the force', I guess) from which the gods we know sprung like flowers from the earth.
I am going to start looking into the concepts of ghosts, spirits, angels and demons. And more about the fair folk. There are connections there, I think. Connections of magic that transcend religions and mythologies and politics.
I am going to step back from the Wheel this year. I am going back to the secular holidays that I celebrated as a kid. I am not going to try and juggle Yule and Christmas. I will enjoy the season, alone. The days I will let pass with a moment of reflection and thought.
I started with Halloween. To me it was a quiet night of reflection on those who have passed before and plans for the future. The end of the year.
I hope that this year will bring me some illumination. I am done trying to fill specific days with ritual that doesn't seem to do much for me. All days have the potential for illustrating the beauty of the season.
I am moving off the path again. Who knows where I will end up. Wish me luck.
--Phae
