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I've still got a bit of catching up to do with the PBP, but I'm on that.  WP says that my Wheel of the Year page has been getting a lot of visits lately.  I think that I ought to work on that some more.  At least do December.  I meant to add it to my regularly scheduled postings, but I got lazy, and then I forgot.

The Wheel is daunting to me.  The pages for my blog will basically be a compilation of what I know, believe and practise.  That's a lot of work.  People write whole books on it.  And I'm putting it all on a blog.  

Or, I suppose I could put intros on the blog pages and then put the rest together into book format.  I always figured if I ever wrote a Pagan book it would be either about entertaining or about the Wheel.  It would be cool to be a published author.  And a few extra bucks now and then can't hurt, right?

We'll see.  My spare time is not a constant thing.  Neither is my level of productivity.  I guess I'll start one holiday post and see where it goes from there.

Holidays are difficult when you are on your own.  Sabbats are often the time I wish that I had a coven to share my celebrations with.  Or even a big family. 

My family is small, and we all work full time.  There are no kids, so we seem to just get together when we can.  It tends to leave a hole.  Not just at the Sabbats, but on secular holidays as well.

And being sick doesn't help things either.  I feel like I am being lazy by sleeping and only working on things that don't require me to move from the couch.  Though, one of the reasons I hate being sick in the first place is that it makes me feel like I am incredibly lazy and missing out on other things I could be doing.

It occurs to me now that this might be part of the reason that I end up sick so often.

But, I digress.  This post isn't a pity party.  For some reason, my mind just won't let me be in a bad mood for too long (this has issues all its own), and the general feeling of a cloudy, cool, barely well Beltane weekend has inspired me.  I have this little voice that says, 'Well, if you don't like it, fix it.'

So, I'm going to.  Today, while I wait for WD to wake up and take me out to do my errands, I am going to spend my time switching between cleaning, and writing out list of Beltane celebrations, poems, crafts, foods, etc for my BOS.  I figure if I am going to save up for one of those big, fancy tomes, then I'd best have some good stuff to put in it.

--Phae