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Maybe not the best way to start the GP, but what can I say? Better late than never.

Day 1 - The first was my first day of photography class. It was so awesome. It felt so great to be back in a structured learning environment again. I was grateful to have finally had the guts to go back.

Day 2 - Saturday I was grateful that it was a holiday weekend, and class was postponed until the following Friday (my class is Fridays and Saturdays). I don't get to spend a lot of time with WD these days. We both work too much, and now that I am going to school, there will be weekends where we don't really see each other at all.

Day 3 - Sunday I don't remember terribly well, but I am grateful that I found that special swim shampoo that Vicky was talking about. With all the heavy conditioning I have been doing lately, the removal of the chlorine makes my hair look and feel like the Pantene commercial girls.

Day 4 - Monday was BC day - a bank holiday to even the stats out for this time of year. I love being out on stats because the city is quiet like a Sunday morning when everyone else is at church. I was grateful for the peace.

Day 5 - Tuesday is another day that passed in somewhat of a blur. I was very grateful for our swimming pool. The added stress at work, and the lack of any foreseeable vacation has caused my insomnia to flare (which means that regular things like housework and many smaller projects get lost in the haze of sleep deprivation. Swimming these days is the only thing that helps me to sleep normally. I am thinking of moving it up to four or maybe five days a week.

Day 6 - Wednesday I finally redid my resume and applied for those other jobs. I am grateful for the courage to toss all my new plans out just to see what happens.

Day 7 - Thursday I was grateful for WD. Thursday afternoon was rushed because he had to go to work just a couple hours after I got off work, but we still managed to have a decent dinner together and make a quick trip to the library (hooray for Poe!)

Day 8 - Today I am grateful for memories. I had a very strange dream about losing my black pearl (it's a necklace that my mother gave to me when I was young). I remember chasing after it and running over and swimming through half frozen water. I woke up trying to remember whether or not I actually still had it at all (a lot of my things are lost in storage at the moment because this apartment is too small to have ever fully unpacked).

I do have a treasure box where I keep all of the very special things that I inherited from my mother. I opened it up after crawling out of bed, and there it was, shining out from its little gold cage. I never really wear it because I don't wear gold jewellery, but I think I will today. I think it is important.

--Phae

Ripples

Nov. 29th, 2007 03:12 am
pt_tangles: (The Hermit)
I am reading the last couple of chapters of the Heart of Wicca, and I came across a sentiment that I seem to see around a lot lately. It's an explanation of Karma that seems just as short sighted as the views that the author is complaining about. I feel that I am being surrounded by the philosophy of, "We are all connected ... except when something bad happens."

I understand that extreme pacifism is distasteful to a lot of people. I also get that people who use karma or the Rede as an excuse for inaction are in for a really rude awakening one day. But, does that mean that when tragedy does strike that it is outside of karma or destiny or whathaveyou?

I really don't think so.

I know that no one likes to think that suffering is anything other than just random occurrence or as someone used to so often shout at me, 'shit just happens'. It's not tasteful to tell people who are going through hard times that their suffering very likely is for a purpose. No one wants to hear that. But, it doesn't mean that it isn't true.

To paraphrase Ellen Cannon Reed, "Being attacked is not part of the Goddess' plan." Why not? If we believe that we are all connected to one another to make up a web of life and magic, then why is it so hard to grasp the idea that not everything that happens in your life is something that revolves around you and your journey?

I have learned a lot from other people as well as my own life. I didn't need to have an abusive boyfriend or parents who threw me out on the street to see the effect it has on people.

Let's take the example of someone being beaten to a bloody pulp. Maybe it is seeing your bravery in dealing with the pain, and healing that leads someone else to illumination. Maybe it shows the orderly at the hospital that even victims of violent crime can be courageous. Maybe it finally sinks into his head that violence doesn't make you strong.

Maybe it helps the nurse find the strength to leave her abusive boyfriend, even if only by illustrating to her what is very likely in her future if she doesn't.

And maybe it shows you reserves of strength that you didn't know you had. Shows you that you can deal with something that you thought beyond your abilities, and that there is life on the other end.

Bad things happen. People are hurt, and sometimes they die. Just because things aren't pleasant doesn't mean that they aren't there to help us grow.

I think a lot of people are stuck rebelling against the idea that "God is testing you".  Even that tired platitude of faith wasn't designed to be a cop out.  It was designed to help people find the strength to move forward, no matter what was standing in their way.  Is that something that is really so terrible that it absolutely has to be false?

I believe that all life is connected.  I believe that our actions echo through the web.  And sometimes, I believe that our lives and our troubles can help to start the ripples in someone else's pond.

And I don't think that is a bad thing.

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