Awakened By A Pleasant Suprise

PJ's package! Woohoo! For a minute I thought you had taped a magnet to the back of the incense bag! lol What can I say, it is still early for me. Thanks so much! *happy-new-witchy-supplies-dance*

--Phae

This Does Not Bode Well

I decided to give writing on the computer a chance, and in the middle of my first chapter, the cable guy comes by. Apparently, our connection is having feedback issues which is screwing up the whole network. So, I save, shut down, and let him fiddle with whatever he is fiddling with to fix our cable connection.

He leaves, we clean up, I boot up the computer and what do I find? Over a page of text is gone. Just gone. I didn't have it written down in my notebook, so I can't just retype it. No, I have to re-write it. I have to break the flow of my story to go back and do it all again.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAGggggggggggggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

I think I am going to cry :( This is not the start I was hoping for.

--Phae

All Is Good

Sort of. I can't seem to get the NaNo page to load, which kind of sucks, but the good news is that it only took me three hours to reach today's goal. According to Word, I am at 2106 words. And now I am going to play video games.

I will probably write some more later today (since it is flowing fairly well so far ... even after my cable debacle), but if I don't, then no problem. This structured writing thing might be the way to go for me. No more 'I should do some writing today'. Instead it is a 'I need to write *this many* words today, and then my work is done and I can play.' That has got to be more productive.

Maybe I do have it in me to be a novelist after all. Or maybe this is just beginner's luck :P Time will tell, I suppose. I am even kind of glad that I am relegated back to the bus (via the car issues). Now I have time on my commute to get more writing in while I am on my way to and from work.

--Phae

2,106 / 50,000 (4.2%)

Traditions, Religions and Crafts

I have been churning something in my head lately, and I think it needs to come out now. I think I might be falling back into agnosticism. It isn't that I don't believe in gods. It is more that I am not entirely certain of their nature. I am finding more and more that I don't really see them as gods. Not in the traditional sense of the word, anyway.

I am sort of starting to look at them as powerful spirits. Similar perhaps to Catholic saints. Those who help us to do our work in the world. I don't know if there is a creator deity, and further, if there is, I don't know that it is a conscious being. I have always had a easier time seeing big g God as more of an energy field (like 'the force', I guess) from which the gods we know sprung like flowers from the earth.

I am going to start looking into the concepts of ghosts, spirits, angels and demons. And more about the fair folk. There are connections there, I think. Connections of magic that transcend religions and mythologies and politics.

I am going to step back from the Wheel this year. I am going back to the secular holidays that I celebrated as a kid. I am not going to try and juggle Yule and Christmas. I will enjoy the season, alone. The days I will let pass with a moment of reflection and thought.

I started with Halloween. To me it was a quiet night of reflection on those who have passed before and plans for the future. The end of the year.

I hope that this year will bring me some illumination. I am done trying to fill specific days with ritual that doesn't seem to do much for me. All days have the potential for illustrating the beauty of the season.

I am moving off the path again. Who knows where I will end up. Wish me luck.

--Phae