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Something kinda weird just happened to me. I was having my bath and concentrating on those qualities that I want to grow in myself this waxing moon phase, and then the ocean flashed before my eyes. It was a beautiful scene with some rocky islands to the side of my vision, but I was looking out over the ocean to the horizon ... and then I started to bob up and down ... slowly and evenly ... in a way that should have made me a little seasick, and then I realized that I was asleep (I have been having some issues with my insomnia these last few days).
Now I feel like I could drift off the moment I close my eyes, but I want to get this down before I forget all about it. I had a distinct impression that 'the ocean is listening' ... it makes sense now, but it prolly won't in the morning.
The qualities I want to grow in myself:
Confidence in my appearance. I have taken on a 'I don't care how I look' attitude since my later years in high school, and honestly, most of the time I don't think about how I look to everyone else. But, every once in a while I will catch a glimpse of myself in a window or a mirror. I want to not scrunitize every curve and worry that my shirt is clingy in the 'wrong' places. I want the confidence that comes from knowing that I am beautiful on the outside as well as on the inside.
I want to be open to compliments. I want to be able to see what others see in me. I know that people find me attractive ... my fiance is always telling me how beautiful I am ... I often have men (and women for that matter) hit on me at my job ... I have never understood what it was that draws people to me ... I want to see it for myself.
I want to be able to feel feminine even in a tshirt and jeans. I want to always be able to carry with me the feeling of those long flowing skirts and bell-sleaved blouses ... I especially want to feel that pretty when I am wearing my work uniform (yuck! :oP).
I am falling asleep in my chair ... I want to add too that it was raining again today ... a cold, autumn rain that cleared into a beautiful, sunny afternoon right after I got off of work.
--Phae
Now I feel like I could drift off the moment I close my eyes, but I want to get this down before I forget all about it. I had a distinct impression that 'the ocean is listening' ... it makes sense now, but it prolly won't in the morning.
The qualities I want to grow in myself:
Confidence in my appearance. I have taken on a 'I don't care how I look' attitude since my later years in high school, and honestly, most of the time I don't think about how I look to everyone else. But, every once in a while I will catch a glimpse of myself in a window or a mirror. I want to not scrunitize every curve and worry that my shirt is clingy in the 'wrong' places. I want the confidence that comes from knowing that I am beautiful on the outside as well as on the inside.
I want to be open to compliments. I want to be able to see what others see in me. I know that people find me attractive ... my fiance is always telling me how beautiful I am ... I often have men (and women for that matter) hit on me at my job ... I have never understood what it was that draws people to me ... I want to see it for myself.
I want to be able to feel feminine even in a tshirt and jeans. I want to always be able to carry with me the feeling of those long flowing skirts and bell-sleaved blouses ... I especially want to feel that pretty when I am wearing my work uniform (yuck! :oP).
I am falling asleep in my chair ... I want to add too that it was raining again today ... a cold, autumn rain that cleared into a beautiful, sunny afternoon right after I got off of work.
--Phae
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