Lately, I have been considering creating my own altar. I have resisted this idea for a long time (mainly because I am not Wiccan), and most of the time it comes down to a lack of space. Some recent conversations involving small, portable altars got my creative juices flowing, and all sorts of ideas are popping into my head.
I find myself, now, questioning why I want one. Will I use it? Will it just be to show off some of my Pagan-esque things? Will it be an excuse to buy more Pagan-esque things (I don't need an athame, but I have the feeling if I have an altar, I may buy one)? Will it just become another unfinished project?
I have a stang ... it hasn't been decorated yet, and is still waiting for me to pick up a bag of sand so that it can sit in its pot instead of leaning against the wall. Perhaps I should focus more on it ... start the decorating instead of waiting until I gather all the necessary supplies.
I know that there are different kinds of altars, and that mine need not be one that is used for spellwork ... but, I don't know ... perhaps it is the change I am craving. An altar would sort of solidify my trek out of the broom closet. If I set one up, I would not hide it away in a corner or dismantle it when relatives came for a visit (which, really isn't all that often, but the fundie in-laws have been known to drop by unannounced).
I have been one foot in and one foot out for some time now ... those close to me know ... my work acquaintances don't and the vast majority of my extended family doesn't. Partly because I don't think they would understand ... partly because I truly feel that what I do with my life isn't their concern. Even so, I think I may be ready to jump out into the light of day (so to speak).
So ... do I want to set up an altar ... or find another 'symbol' of my faith that won't gather dust?
--Phae